Philip Seymour Hoffman suicide? Whether he meant to it or not, that’s exactly what happened. The Hunger Games and Capote star killed himself over the weekend and we are more angry than sad about his death.
We’re just sick of it. We are exhausted by people who have fame, power, wealth and often, beautiful families, who keep wasting their lives like this. Heath Ledger, Amy Winehouse, Corey Monteith, and now Philip Seymour Hoffman dead as well. The list just goes on and on and on. Yes, addiction is a disease.
Yes, it is a powerful, horrible illness that drags you down into the pits and rips you up like a rabid dog. But if someone with his money, his fame, his three sweet kids and everything most of us dream about in life, could not figure out how to simply SURVIVE, what does that say to the rest of us?
You don’t go out and buy 50 bags of heroin if you want to live. That is very clearly saying you want to die. You know that using heroin just once can kill you. You know that every time you use it, it could very likely kill you. Buying 50 bags of it is pretty much like loading a gun with six bullets and playing Russian roulette with yourself and pulling the trigger six times.
Philip Seymour Hoffman killed himself. He committed willful suicide. It was not an unfortunate accident. Or a tragic overdose. Phillip Seymour Hoffman died with a needle in his arm and 50 bags of heroin waiting for him to keep on getting high until it killed him eventually.
We mourn for Philip’s family, his friends, and all of those who will never get to appreciate his creativity, intelligence and artistry in the future. But let’s be honest. He made the choice to die.
Delilah [not her real name], a recovering addict of 18 years and one of our Facebook friends, put it much better than we ever could because she speaks from experience. We thank her for allowing us to share her words.
I’ve been trying to figure out how to phrase this for a while now, ok since yesterday, I just don’t know how to say it without being blunt or “rude” so screw it here goes…
Re: Philip Seymour Hoffman
Yes, yes it is sad we lost a fine actor, but it wasn’t due to anything natural. It was quite preventable, so preventable in fact he had lived the last 15 years in such a preventable lifestyle we all almost forgot what demons he was fighting. He had maintained sobriety for quite some time, especially against one of the hardest addictions to deal with. Heroine is an evil foul demon straight from the pits of hell, the average addict only has to try it once, and they are addicted.
Now this is where you are asking ‘how are you blunt or rude’, well this is how, I do not pity him, and I do not mourn his passing. He chose to die, he chose to give up, and he knew what the consequences would be, the end result of all active heroin addicts is eventually death by over dose. I will not celebrate an addict, I will celebrate their sobriety, I will not celebrate his choice to use again, I will not celebrate his choice to remove himself from his family, friends, co-workers who all loved him so dearly. Yes, it is a choice, you can try to argue with me that it isn’t, but it is. I know it is a disease, a wrenching, family destroying, personal disease that affects more than just the user, but it all starts with a choice.
That choice to try and experiment, and the choice to try something more to see if it makes you feel even better than the first. It all starts with a choice, you chose to try, you chose to see how it is, and you chose to see what it can do. I will not celebrate his choices; I acknowledge it is a horrid disease, a preventable disease, one prevented by choices. I acknowledge the acting community lost a great actor, I think it is sad that such a fine talented man is gone at such a young age, a very talented man, but he is gone due to his choices in life.